I know that now. Alhamdulillah. I do not know how to say it in words but I know it now.
It's been a long time. A really long time and so much has happened and I am back here, back to where it was safe 8 years ago. Where it felt safe and blogging kind of saved my life at the time.
I am blessed with so many things I still have in my life. If I knew what I know now, I may have been able to deal with certain things better, but I understand why it had to be how it was.
How I've learned. The pain and anguish of going through a divorce, of looking at your children's eyes and praying I will know what to tell them one day when the question finally comes.
It was hell and back. But it was meant to happen I guess. And I'm still breathing. And that counts. It means that it's okay to hurt and forgive and move on. It is possible, I'm proof of that alhamdulillah.
Thank you for everything
For the good and the bad
and the life we shared together
I forgive you
And I hope you will forgive me too
Be happy, please
Do what your heart pleases
One day, you will understand
One day, this will be a memory worth having
Halalkan makan dan minum
This is where we end and we begin
InsyaAllah all will be well
I trust in Him
For reference purposes:
Malaysia Airlines Flight 370 was a scheduled international passenger flight that disappeared on 8 March 2014 en route from Kuala Lumpur International Airport to Beijing Capital International Airport. The aircraft operating the service, a Boeing 777-200ER, last made contact with air traffic control less than an hour after take-off. The aircraft was operated by Malaysia Airlines and was carrying 12 crew members and 227 passengers from 15 nations and regions. The majority of passengers on board were Chinese. Source: Wikipedia
Where was I? I had just came back from a long-due trip to Bali, Indonesia. It didn't sit well with me to be on leave when the rest of the world was recalled and working so I volunteered to work beginning Sunday and to date, the plane is still nowhere to be found.
It is now 13 days into the search. I can't even begin to imagine what the families and relatives of the passengers and crew are going through. Having lost someone 8 years ago, one thing I can tell you, the uncertainty alone can kill you. It can drain you mind, sap your energy and drain every ounce of your very being.
From a journalist's point of view, this would be a time you would not want to miss for the world. To be in the midst of news coverage that will one day be part of history. It is mixed feeling to be in news when the news could be a sad one.
Latest update: 2pm March 20, 2014.
CANBERRA: The largest object sighted in the search for missing Malaysia Airlines flight MH370 is 24 metres (79 feet), with a second, smaller object also spotted, Australian authorities said Thursday.
I have learnt something at this 'tender' age of mine, and that is money cannot buy everything. It could buy SOME things but the best things are always FREE.
Why, you ask?
Think about it. Does a smile cost you? Your mother's unending love for you, does it cost you anything?
Your health, time, love, family. All these can't be bought, not
even a million ringgit can.
I have always thought that so many things matter over money. You need it, but it shouldn't define you. It shouldn't change you. Because it is not yours to begin with. It belongs to Allah.
I do not claim to be a pious servant, but that much I would like to believe in myself. It breaks my heart to see money changing people. The smiles that paint their faces which will only last for so long.
I am without a doubt a person full of flaws. But I do hope, Allah gives me the strength to remain who I am, because the rezeki that comes from Him is His, not mine.
I never thought I would say this, but God help me, if I get anymore 'leisured' than this, I would be bed-ridden.
My last day in NST falls on the August 11th. Still serving my leave currently and going out of my mind at the same time. Who would have thought I would feel like this. I guess I was so used to the fast-paced work environment that I have come to NEED it.
Twisted. Yes. I know. What else is new? :-)
On the upside, I get to tend to my kids more without being in a rush like I usually do. No panting, guys, lo and behold. It was lovely, getting to talk to them and taking the time to smile and listen to their chatter about how someone hit someone at school and Hazel walking down the stairs at school holding hands with a boy named Ryan. Wait, what??
Yeah, imagine what my face looked like when Asyraaf told me this. What is it they do at this school u ask? Damn I'm surely gonna find out...Lol...
Anyway, I am due for registration in UiTM on Aug 24th, right after Raya period. Which reminds me, books, bag, assignments, lectures, exams. Urgh... why did I sign up for this again??
On a more serious note, I have always been the kind of person that needs education as a stimulant to my pea-sized brain else I will rust. Yes, literally.
I'm glad I get to study at a 'tender' age of 34 and I hope to swing it this time. Pray for me Argentina...:-P
Gotta go peeps, see you around...In the meantime, Selamat Hari Raya and forgive me for my wrongdoings, in the blessed month of holy Ramadan. Life is short... Enjoy it while you can... :-)
They say life changes. When that happens, you cringe at the uncertainty. But it is true, everything happens for a reason.
At the end of the last mile, I am swept with a bittersweet feeling. The uncertainties came gushing in. It is without a doubt that I have fallen in love with my job.
I was always the girl who fell back behind the limelight. Coz I wanted to do my job, and I didn't want to be praised for things that I don't deserve.
But yes, being forced to be in an unfamiliar territory made me learn many things. Many things that I didn't know I had the ability to learn and be familiar with.
What did I learn? Let's see...
- I learnt to swear without cringing
- To go the extra mile
- To live and let live
- To write...:-)
- To be reprimanded and take it all in a day's job
- To multitask a multitasked job
- To smile and forge ahead no matter shitty the day is
- To take pride in what's mine
I wasn't impressed, definitely. But there's plenty more where it came from, at least if you rely on your own capabilities and not the people you know, that is. I was annoyed with how I was 'transferred' but oh well, life has to go on.
It's madness, this iPad 2 phenomenon. I don't know how Apple did it, but it worked.
For iPads, many of us have been queuing up forever and coming out of the store with a triumphant smiles plastered on our faces. How many devices can do that to us, let alone to the majority of us?
I was lucky this time around I went into the game prepared due to the endless wait. Otherwise I would have been in the queue too since any more waiting would have cost me my life ...Lol...
After managing to secure a booking with EpiCentre in IOI Mall, Puchong. I bided my time... After finishing work on the day of launch, I headed straight for IOI. When the sales guy opened up the box for me to put on the screen protector, the feeling was undescribable. My wait was well worth it.
I got for myself a 16GB Wifi 3G unit in black. For me, that's good enough I guess. At least that's what I think NOW...hehehe... When it comes to gadgets, I'm never too sure with myself...:-D From the reading I have done, Malaysia is one of the cheapest country where you can get an iPad 2. So worked out well for us who have been waiting for so long huh?
Anyway, so far, the iPad 2 has proven to be a good investment for me. Love the feel, the power to be connected at all times, the ability to be organized and do some work even when I needed to. Games are not for me though. Have never played any, not even on my iPhone or any other phones. So life is good for now.
Am a proud owner of an iPad 2, with frequent trips to Machines and epiCentre in between for accessories. It'll die down at some point...this madness but till then... :-)))
Apple iPad 2 Official Spec and Features:
* 33% thinner and 15% lighter than original iPad
* Dual Core A5 Processor
* iOS 4.3
* 9.7 inch display (not retina display but same as original iPad)
* Front and rear facing cameras
* Rear facing camera with 720p HD video recording capability
* FaceTime and PhotoBooth
* 10 hours of battery life
8th of May comes again. A day celebrated for all mothers for the sacrifices and hardships that comes with the territory of being a mum.
Being a mum made me understand that all is not a bed of roses. Children don't come with manuals because every one of them is different. The process of getting to know their uniqueness is called parenting. It made me understand that learning does not come from us only, we as parents also learn from our kids. The refusal to learn from our kids will only result in frictions, which, if not dealt with correctly, may result in a lifelong of frictions and may even cost us their love...
Understand, and accept them for who they are and you may get all the love in the world that can last you a lifetime all the way to your grandkids. I'm no expert, but I do know how precious love is. One day, you'd like to know in your heart that you have no regrets in bringing up your kids.
Happy Mother's Day all... :-)
Again, it's just a matter of personal opinion and preferences...Okay I'm off to another drama journey...See ya...Saranghabnida! :-))))
* It runs in the family too...At least the ones with small eyes like me...Haipp u there, is that a smile I see...? Sepet pun sepetlah...:-)
|After stitches done...|
|3 days after...|
No, I did not go anywhere, overseas or under the sea. Was right here all along, have just been busy with other priorities in life. Have a pending post I have wanting to write...So tunggguuuu...:-)))
Well hello everyone...! :-))) I'm blogging live from Gua Musang, Kelantan. Have been here since Oct 24th...So it's been what, a week plus? Oh my, it was initially very hot during the day, and bloody cold at night. On top of that, we are given accommodations at Rumah Tumpangan Mei Hwa, I call it. Damn, can't the company get us a more decent place to stay with so many other choices, we got among the worst...:-( But I'll live as I always do, some have even taken the extreme measures of shifting to another hotel on a self-paying mode. I don't have that luxury, so Rumah Tumpangan Mei Hwa it is...LOL
Sweet... That was my first thought of Kelantan food. Almost everything is sweet, even the sambal tumis...! It has been quite a long week for some of us. Not only because of the food. But it seems that the culture of the food business is that everyone seems okay with the late service, no matter how long it takes for the food the reach the table.
Impatient KL people like us would sigh at the slow service and the wrongly taken orders by the waiter or waitresses. Mostly due to the language barrier, we usually ended up with teh o when we order teh ais or as they call it here, teh beng. A kopitiam shop here is now well-known for its slow motion service. Funny but the locals do not seem to mind...:-)
I miss my hot chocolate...Huwaaa...As a colleague says it, can't wait to go back to civilisation...LOL. No offence Gua Musang folks, it's just that we are used to certain luxuries in life...be it small ones :-P
I did go around the town to learn and see new things...meet the people. The are actually quite friendly, though it takes me some time to figure what they are saying...LOL...
Meet us in www.oigalas.blogspot.com for more boring stuff on the by-election and campaigning...:-P
|To be visited soon....:-)))|
One of the main reasons I ‘jumped’ into a different field about a year plus ago was my passion for writing. I have always had English as one of my easiest subjects to score during my schooling years.
Blogging started just after Arwah passed away, and carried on until now, although I am sometimes pressed for time, I always have this place called a blog to write about things about my life, things that I go through and things that matter to me.
And of the things that I have always regretted was not being able to be a frequent blogger. And by frequent I mean, a blogger that blogs almost everyday, provide updates often to make readers to come back for more. Working at the same time, can be a bugger to writing since it’s not my primary source of income.
I have been told by a friend to start writing.It is actuall y a dream come true, really. But yet, I hesitate…
Now, if I were to blog on a personal blog, it is okay to make mistakes, and even write about things that’s trivial to many, yet, what the heck, it’s my blog…:-) But writing as in writing for a bigger audience such as the newspaper readers…that thought alone is enough to make me shiver…LOL…And being in the publishing industry, I feel like anchovies in the sea of jaws…so to speak…
But Whatever it is, I will definitely give it a try. And I hope, it’s good enough :-) I really do. In layman’s term, I hope I don’t screw up big time…haha
So friends, share your thoughts on my writing, constructive criticism if you can… in short actually I’m trying to find the nudge that I need to have, as a friend keeps saying…”START WRITING!…” LOL…Man, that guy never gives up! I hope I’m worth his trouble though…:-)
So see ya guys around…and this time I will say… look out for me in print sometime next year ya? Next year is a loooonngg time to go….(Stalling) LOL…