Asyraaf came down with phlegm. We didn't know such thing existed, but we thought it sounded odd that his breathing had a laboured kind of sound to it. So we decided to take him to a pediatrician. He was given gas to breathe for about 20 minutes and was told he had this phlegm thing and if the sound in his breathing didn't cease, he should be warded to be treated. Yes, we are worried. And it is a weird feeling to have. I guess that feeling is what parents feel when their child gets sick. But for all the worrying in the world we are feeling, Asyraaf didn't look bothered. In fact, he fell asleep when he was given the gas! Anyway...we'll be following up with the clinic again, and see what needs to be done. How I would trade places with him...:-( *Phlegm is mucus produced by the respiratory system, excluding that from the nasal passages, and particularly that which is expelled by coughing (sputum). Its composition varies, depending on climate, genetics and state of the immune system, but basically is a water-based gel consisting in glycoproteins, immunoglobulins, lipids, etc. * In short, I call it mucus (I really don't understand half of it anyway...:-)).
This is Mira's post on her son's (Emir) treatment of Phlegm: http://emmira.blogspot.com/2006_09_01_archive.html
Posted by eddina at 23:03 6 comments
Bye "Lauk Kuning" ...
I'M FINALLY A FREE WOMAN! WOOHOOO...!!! Hehehe...I finally completed my PANTANG...phew...although I was on confinement most of the time in my own home, i tried to stick to the diet and pantangs as strickly as possible...kekadang tersasar tu halallah...hehehe.But I tried...and am proud to say...I managed to do it.... That lauk in the picture was the lauk I ate everyday courtesy of K ina and her mom...Thanks a lot...really appreaciate ur help...During confinement, this was the lauk that I could swallow that I could really taste. Because everything is 'tak boleh makan ni...gatal nanti, tak boleh makan ni jugak...angin...' SO it was a blessing when K ina brought it for me to eat. It was kind of easy anyway, masak nasi panas, eat it with the lauk kuning...yumm sedapp....:-). So bye lauk kuning( i don't know the name actually...but it's yelloy hence the name lauk kuning). Now that I finished pantang,hmm...i don't really know where to go, not that I wouldn't appreciate a visit to Chili's maybe * hint2 but because of the budget constraint...we have to refrain from spending so much, since the baby is already here and all...Cut your coat according to your cloth, my father would say to me when still a child... still does. Next week, we are going on a trip to Penang to celebrate the end of my pantang and also Munir's birthday...it's the three of us this year...nice to have a child to celebrate it with at times like this ( though when he's screaming his head off when my eyes are still foggy...err..not so nice :-)) . AND....I added a little extra something yesterday for my own personal triumph...I waited 10 months for this...* worth every drop...* I know it's nothing to some of you, but when you've waited for 10 months for it...well, it changes your perspective...:-) Posted by eddina at 11:05 3 comments 26.6.07
I came across this video clip by chance... and i sat transfixed watching it over and over again... becoz the pain and anguish i see in it is oh so familiar... I have to admit after 2 years, after having everything i ever wished for, Arwah Din is not someone u can forget just like that... more so when he was your husband... if anybody asked me to describe him, the word that automatically comes to mind is... beautiful. A beautiful man, inside and out... What an honour to be given the opportunity to be his wife. Seeing the girl in the video driving and stopping by the roadside just to cry, did that numerous times. Staring blankly at the ocean, seeing flashes of me and arwah, had that, dozens of times. PAINFUL. Yes, it was painful. Had it not been for Munir, I couldn't have gotten up from my stumble in life. Had it not been for him, I would not be smiling now. I was blessed with my previous life as I am blessed again with my new life and now, a lifetime joy- Asyraaf. Al- fatihah... Posted by eddina at 14:16 3 comments 25.6.07
Mother's Best Friend...
After 4 weeks of sleepless nites, we were told by some people to get a 'buaian' (baby cradle) for Asyraaf. At first, trying to stand by our belief that we want him to sleep on a flat bed, not a buai to make sure it's easy to travel, well...sleepless nites changed that...we finally caved in...:-) Alas, family and frens, u will see us carrying the buai everytime we travel after this...hehehe. But oh, it feels so good when he's sleeping so soundly and we get some sleep too... Munir even lost 2.5 kg after 4 weeks, good diet therapy huh? Now I know why new parents get thinner while their child get chubbier...:-)
Posted by eddina at 19:51 5 comments 20.6.07
An Unforgettable Experience...
I just want to share with you experience giving birth which led to caesarean section. For your info, I had normal checkups monthly up to the latest checkup at the hospital a week prior to the birth due date. I was scheduled for a normal delivery on the 29th May 2007. 27th May, I had a bleeding in the morning and prepared to go to the Hospital with my husband. But we made a stop at the kedai mamak for lunch (ahhakks... in case i get admitted, i didn't want to be hungry!). Actually, before this, I have been to the Hospital twice due to bleedings but was sent home and was told that it still wasn't the time for delivery yet.On the 27th, I was admitted because the contractions had begun. After spending the evening there, I had massive bleeding at 3 am that nite. Still, I was told to wait till the next morning.9 am the next morning, I was wheeled to the delivery room for normal delivery. Munir was called to receive the baby. However, after the MO burst the amniotic sac, the fluid didn't come, instead blood poured out of me. The MO had a specialist come to take a look and ONLY THEN, they knew I had placenta previa. At this point, I was bleeding heavily and profusely. Hence, I was prepared for OR and went into surgery soon after. 11.24 am, Ahmad Zamir Asyraaf was born. I could hear his screams since I was on half anaesthetic. The worst has passed... alhamdulillah... However, I was a little bit saddened by the fact they could not detect the situation early since I had three bleedings prior to giving birth and went to the emergency ward at the Hospital. It should have given them a warning to at least do an ultrasound to check whether the placenta has blocked the cervix or not. Thus, this information below is just to share with you out there who is pregnant or in the process of getting pregnant and maybe prep you for situations we went thru...I always thought it's gud to know sumthing beforehand so u can prepare urself...but at the end of the day, qada' dan qadar Tuhan will decide. Well, at least we can try our best and the rest, let Allah decide what's best. I for one know that from experience...:-) Placenta praevia is when the placenta is in the lower segment of the uterus and covers part or all of the cervix. Between three and six of every 1000 pregnant women have this problem. As the lower part of the uterus stretches in the second half of pregnancy, the placenta may become detached, causing severe bleeding. The baby cannot be born vaginally if the placenta is totally obstructing the opening from the womb. Uncontrolled bleeding (haemorrhage) is life-threatening for both mother and baby, although this is rare. If the bleeding doesn't stop, or if the mother goes into premature labour, the baby will need to be delivered by caesarean section even if the date on which he was due isn't for quite a few weeks. Placenta praevia can be divided into four types, of which the first two are the most common:I the placenta is positioned low in the womb, but the baby can still be born vaginally.II the lower edge of the placenta touches the opening of your cervix, but does not cover it, so the baby can be born vaginally.III the placenta partially covers the opening of your cervix. The baby will need to be born by caesarean section.IV the placenta completely covers the opening of your cervix. The baby will need to be born by caesarean section. * For the record, it hurt like hell after the anaesthetic wore off...!!! Munir said I walked like I had parkinson when I tried to go to the bathroom...my dear, dear husband...(we'll 'talk' later huh...)Oh yeah, this was the time 'we' wives can get to see if our husbands really love us...I for one fell in love again with him seeing him running around taking care of me and the baby and other things, almost all the time out of breath...hihi, thank you abang for everything...:-)
Posted by eddina at 19:07 4 comments 10.6.07
I am Finally Here...
Posted by eddina at 18:22 5 comments 25.5.07
A Glimpse into the Past...
Recently I got to know of a close relative who did not know of my past, who just read my blog, especially the older posts, cried after reading them. I wonder what touched her, was it the sorrow? or the excruciating pain that was there in the words...? It still amazes me how those posts still touched some people, i used to get emails and words of comfort and even tears from close frens and relatives when they read the posts. And i read them again...yesterday. and yes, i still cry, even with all this happiness around me... Funny, isn't it...?Oh yes...the infamous pain...is still there...when u lose someone, it's not easy to let it go... but life has to move on... i know, it's easier said than done. But that's just how life is...it will keep moving no matter what...But one gud thing out of it is that, at that time u will see who are ur true friends and who are not, whether ur family is as supportive as they claim to be... and what it means for someone to just...offer a shoulder to cry on. Becoz...actually, there's NOTHING anybody can do actually, nothing that would ease the pain, nothing that would undo the tragedy that has befallen u, nothing. YOU have to get up and hold up ur head high, YOU have to swallow ur tears and smile, it's YOU that has to always remember that God will always be with u, if only u believe...Now that i'm out of those bleak clouds...i turn back and see, how much effort, and tears, and will of strength it took for me to get up and walk again. And beware, at these crippling times, some people may take advantage of ur weakness. Yeah, I had that too... I was alone, even my family wasn't there much, coz i didn't think i let them in anyway, becoz it's not easy for them to understand that a test like that will make u stumble and fall, and there is no shame in falling, not if ur human...So thank you my friends and the people who never gave up on me getting back on my feet, to my husband who never judged me but was just...there. It meant the world to me... and i wouldn't be who i am today hadn't it been for what i have learnt from my pain...
Posted by eddina at 19:34 2 comments
A Timeless Gift...
I just got this gift from my SIL (thanks k ina...) It's a simple book for my future baby, all the simplest things in life we often take for granted but are actually valuable in the course of life of our child ie his/her first teeth, the first scan of the baby makes us remember how elated we were at seeing the first glimpse of his/her face, the first thumbprint, first family photo...:-)I wonder when our child is all grown up later on, what's to remind us of his/her first days of life...i hope we will remember the joys of first having a baby till the rest of our lives... :-)* Thanks k ina, can always count on you for a gift that means a lot, be it just a book (yeah, i still remember the book titled "Rahmat sebuah Dugaan" u gave me at my utmost lost of direction in life...) Thanks...
Posted by eddina at 19:17 1 comments 2.3.07
MY BLESSING...
Alhamdulillah...meet our future generation of 6 months...insya-Allah. For those of u who haven't heard from me for quite some time...THIS is why :-). Been busy with the morning sickness and adjusting with my new body size... We just had this scan last week, and I can't even begin telling u how it felt to see someone moving inside u...alive...and it's ur child... I think those who have had children would know the feeling...but, for those who are still waiting...insya-Allah, u will have ur blessings too one day...I know the feeling, after all, I have been thru the 'waiting' process too and believe me, I know how hurtful it can be to see other people pregnant when ur not... BUT as usual, there is always a reason y God made it so...one day u will understand...I am due in May and now busy preparing things to buy for the new member of the family to come... I have to buy these things before I get too big to even walk, am now experiencing difficulties as it is...the leg ache, back pain...the usual... am adjusting and am thankful to have a husband who understands and who tries to be involved in every stage of the pregnancy. It makes the joy of being pregnant (and the pains too:-) so much more memorable...Anyway, pray for my safe delivery in May 2007...will update his/her pictures when the baby's born...
Posted by eddina at 02:31 4 comments 23.2.07
Jam during the CNY...
I have heard from other people before how bad traffic can be during festive holidays but man...was I in for a surprise!! It was bad! Starting straight from the Sg Buloh toll, crawling for like forever! Nearly drove my husband insane! And thanks to the jam, everyone became restless, more rude on the road and all i can say is, it brought out the worst in everyone... We only managed to suffer untill Rawang, then ny husband took the federal road until Tapah (i think...was asleep some of the time...:-)) We stopped to pee and then went on and on and on...We started at 4 and reached Ipoh at 11.30 pm. God was it a long drive...Next year, we have to plan ahead...nope, not going thru that again...
Posted by eddina at 03:01 1 comments 12.2.07
First Day of School...
Posted by eddina at 06:17 1 comments
Wedding pictures...Finally...
Okay...finally...my wedding pics from my professional photographer is finally here...and i'm already 5 months+ preggie...:-). Anyway, since there are hundreds of them, i picked some and put it into collages for ur viewing. Enjoy...for me it was the greatest wedding with my closest frens and family helping out...thanks everyone, i really appreciate it... Hantaran (courtesy of Hera) At Masjid Setiawangsa Preparing for Wedding Reception Wedding at Dewan Perdana Felda 130806
Langkawi trip...
Posted by eddina at 03:52 0 comments 10.2.07
Introducing...My mischievous Niece
A few weeks back...me and my siblings had a get-together and my hubby managed to take some photos of my hyperactive niece... Notice the resemblance in the eyes... :-) that one cannot be helped lah...hahaha.
Posted by eddina at 14:53 1 comments 12.12.06
New beginning...
To tell u the truth...this is my third time trying to write a blog...but i got lost in space instead...until i finally realised...there is nothing more to tell...I kept thinking why it is different this time to write a blog...it used to be so easy...everytime i wanted to start writing...the ideas from my past experiences would guide me and the words would flow...freely...But now...i am lost...And i realized...that my sorrow has gone...yeah, of course the pain will still be there but the tears has dried up...and my smile is purely from my heart now...i am learning to look at the people around me...and registering things that i have ignored in the past one year and 3 months...I sat puzzled for awhile...But i guess this is God's gift to whom who are patient to His tests...His reward maybe...I hope i have managed to gain this reward...Alhamdulillah...So now that i dun have any more sad stories of my life to write...let me start this new blog with a happy new beginning...I'll tell u about the place we went to during our honeymoon...Damai Laut...In my opinion...this is a place especially designed for us not to go anywhere but stay inside it...Really, once u are in...it is hard for u to get out becoz of the distance to the nearest town is very far...in the end, we ended up staying in the room, spending time looking at the ocean...and the view is marvellous...i dun know abt u guys, but for me this is my first time to a place like this...and i think will be for a veryyy long time...Anyway, the view was great...u can look at the ocean right form ur balcony and watch the sunset. It was breathtaking...for anybody who wants to 'revive' their long lost relationship...i suggest this place...We spent a few days there...and on the eve of Merdeka we headed up to Penang and spent the night watching fireworks...Well, all in all, it was a great trip...and we had a long and good rest before started working again...and be drained to my last energy molecule as usual...:-)...So that's about all there is to write...still getting used to this new feeling of writing without the sorrow surrounding me...But I'm glad i am at last able to get up and walk with my head held high again...and looking at my husband...I just have be thankful he is here with me...
Posted by eddina at 03:08 1 comments
I am blessed...
Alhamdulillah...I am now wed to my husband, Ahmad Munir Mohd Mansor...the nikah and wedding ceremony was held on the 13th of August 2006 at Masjid Setiawangsa and Dewan Perdana Felda, respectively...It is hard to describe the feelings i have now...but one thing i know for sure is that, I AM BLESSED...twice...both times given the happiness a lot of other people take a lifetime to achieve...it is a blessing...I am now given a beautiful husband to take care of me...and to cherish me...to share my happiness and sadness, in going thru mysteries of life...He managed to touch my heart...being there for me...not so near but just enough for me to know that he is there...whenever i choose to turn to him...Thank you abang...for wiping my tears when there is just no more will and strength left in me...For accepting me for who i am...and trying ur hardest to be the best husband you know how...It wasn't always smooth sailing...we had our share of ups and downs, what with me at the same time trying to get back on track...and letting go of the past...But alhamdulillah...as people say...if u belief in God's fate...He will guide you...We try to learn to be the best person to each other, while sacrificing other things...but that's life, i guess...full of surprises and sacrifices...But I'm glad...God chose the perfect person understand me...and also to teach me other things in life that i have not learnt thru my husband...We are trying...like many of u out there...trying to fit into each other's life...and making memories...making happiness...yeah...weaving happiness out of our lives...I am finally moving with the world again...i'm no longer stuck in time...while others move forward...and what's most beautiful about it...He gave me my husband to share it with...I REALLY AM BLESSED...
Posted by eddina at 03:05 0 comments
Now i understand...
Pain is actually a good life-learning tool, trust me on this...For from pain u will learn how to cope with it, to make things go better despite the pain and to stop crying even when ur heart aches...I have learnt it, painfully. No wonder God said he will test us if He loves us...coz the pain will make us better person, stronger inside and out...But mind u...u will be very disappointed in someone u have always cared for, or see understanding from people u never thot was that significant to u in the past...U see love, u will also get love, maybe not from those who u thot would have been with u thru thick and thin,but someone else.So it makes u wiser...in many ways than one.I am now typing after 1 year and 57 days after the reason why i first wrote in this blog for ... left...passed away...gone... And in 15 days i will insya-Allah be married to another man...but make no mistake, this tear will still flow like it did a year and 57 days ago...It is hard to understand for many of u actually, but this is nothing to understand, it is just something to accept, truly...I write from my heart when i say i still miss my late husband as i did for the past days that went by...I cry every single day without miss on my way to work, back from work, when i see someone who looks like him...missing his smile, his understanding, his strength...but i'm more saddened by words that cut like a knife...'ala...sedih2 pun kahwin jugak...' :-) If only i can open my heart and misery for all to see, trust me my friends...u would kneel and cry for this pain is so unbearable when ur partner and soulmate left u...I am now standing tall and looking forward...i might fall and stumble, but at least i will have someone to offer his hand to help...He is gentle and kind, a person who can feel my pain and cry for my sorrow without having me to say a word...I can see why God sent him to me at the exact time i really needed someone by my side. I know now why God took Arwah away from me...it is not everyday u can meet someone who can cry and feel ur pain without making assumptions, he is simply, there...with open arms at any time the situation got so tough... and the tears have dried up...Yes, now i understand...So i am dedicating my heartfelt thank you for all of u out there for ur good wishes and prayers...no matter how near or far u are...i felt it...Thank you from the bottom of my heart...
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